One of my room mates is leaving. We're reliant on their car plus their income. We havent been getting along for a while for many reasons but we decided to stick it out and make plans just last Saturday and already shes putting in the towel... This is a total bummer, were so very fucked now.

Besides needing a car we need that money. I dont think my skills are quite good enough for commissions, i dont even know where to start anyways. Not enough people know me for this to even be a possibility. Drawing is just about all im able to do these days because of the arthritis in my legs. Iv never been able to hold a job due to it. I was thinking i could make something of my drawing while building up my skills but now... I dunno what the eff to do.

Life, this is a very uncool curve ball your throwing at me. Complaing will do nothing but i have to say im irritated by this. Nothing good has happened in three months. In the past iv given and given and given so much of myself to others, for no reason, just felt like it. A 5 here a 20 there. Some food here, a monitor there, stuff, stuff, stuff... Just to give. I aways thought giving people lived good lives. Im the main reason this person even has a place to live and now their just leaving! Family sucks sometimes. Life, your very unpredictable. I dont get why this is happening but i cant help but find it funny. I refuse to believe there is no meaning behind this. Theres gotta be some good hidden somewhere in all this BS.